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Monday, August 16, 2010

what a monday

Monday came, a day most of us in the office was looking forward to.

But everything turned out so different. IT's not final yet. Haven't seen the new boss yet. But i'm facing some uncertainties that might likely happen to me. I'm very scared right now.

God, please don't do this to me. Maybe it's really time for me to do something.

Please Please Please please don't pick me. I had enough of it last year. Please DO NOT PICK ME!!!

DOn't please don't!!!

Friday, August 13, 2010

counting down: 1 month

I believe it has been long since I wrote anything here. And today, I decided to again.

Working so far has been alright. Many ups and downs, considering the situation I have in my working environment. I can be so stress at one time, or under stress to a point that I actually feel so useless.

My first job. My first experience. And as I grow older, the harder I find it to make real true friends.

But I have been blessed by God to meet my closest colleugue. Maybe I shouldn't even refer her as my colleugue because she is no doubt one of my closest friends now. I remember how kind of her to empathize the loneliness I felt when I first entered this office. Everyone was simply too busy to talk to me or help me adapt to this unfamiliar environment. I find it so difficult because people around me really will affect my performance and self confidence.

We clicked so well because we really have so many similar interest. When I was facing work dilemmas and work stress, she was there. When she was down and helpless, I was there. We grew up together in this difficult environment and we always talk about leaving this place when we reach our one year term.

Talking about it became like a habit that you just wouldn't think it is coming. And suddenly, she was talking more often about it, including going for interviews and looking for her job so actively. And then, all the stress hit her and she decided to tender her resignation. We have been talking, but suddenly, she said she was ready to leave.

She finally handled the letter today. I encouraged her. Because why would I want to see her suffer in this company? But when we were hanging out, trying to digest whatever that just happened, I guess it finally hit in.

I went for dinner, putting aside this incident. But while I was driving back from Sunway Giza, just a short 10 minutes drive, it really made me feel sad.

Who am I going to chat with all day in office when there is nothing to do? Who am I to go lunch with after this? Who to hang out with once in a way after such a boring day at work? Who, the only person every willing to help out anything, do I look for?

Everything will change. Everyday will change.

Only 1 month left. Sometimes, I really wished, that, like both of us hope, that we actually get to tender together. But plans can never catch up with changes.

I really dislike that woman who made her leave!

It's never going to be the same again. And surely, I will miss you!


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